Posted by: maddiebones on: October 19, 2009
seriously.
here i am, thinking of how can i better organize my posts in blog and my files and folders in my notebook rather than get up and clean up my room!
argh.
anyway, i will post this in under 3 minutes because it’s going to be 5a.m as of now, which is 4.32a.m. Ah. Mum’s going to call me up and kill me for sleeping late. haha. anyway, i hate it. i wish i can clean up my room so easily.
you know something? i think i’ve come up with a practical and functional organizational system for myself. let’s see if i can work it out tomorrow. there’s bound to be some kinks in the system and some things might fall through the cracks, but i have to know. i can’t go on being disorganized and messy!
plus, i have an exam this wednesday and a quiz on tuesday. how screwed can i get? oh. i wish things were different, but you know what, i’m so glad that i refreshed my liking and aptitude for chemistry. i really do enjoy learning, and it’s interesting to mess with different chemicals. i just might put more effort into my laboratory reports if i weren’t so busy trying to copy them.
haha.
and i’ve been busy pranking people lately. it’s just so awesome to do so many in such short time. not that i’m in any rush to establish a reputation for myself, but it keeps me occupied and distracted enough. not too much, but not too shabby either. oh well. time’s up. and i wanna sleep.
hopefully i can get up for morning prayer later. haha. 6.a.m. die.
Posted by: maddiebones on: September 26, 2009
I have this knack for disappearing and appearing when I feel like it, and when people don’t expect it. It’s an escapist tendency that I just have in me, and I don’t feel like changing it anytime soon. When people get way too close for me, I’d just go poof! down the rabbit hole into my own wonderland.
This time around, I’ve been missing because of the Raya break. My father insisted that I returned back to Miri, to coach my brother for his finals. I went back on Monday, but most of my friends went back on Friday itself. Oh, well.
The only one left behind with me was Jia Lerd. Heh. We were just bored out of our minds, despite having our assignments and lab reports to keep our minds and hands occupied. Until one day we walked past Stanley’s car outside block H. Oh. That was the highlight of our holidays. Nothing like a good, loving prank to kickstart a relaxing break. Awesome, no?
We got busy on Saturday and Sunday, and asked a lot of people to write stuff for Stanley. Some of them are sweet. Some disgusting. Some are just plain funny. And some were reminders for him to stay faithful in his walk. Overall, we did a good job of redecorating his car. We even had the entire process well documented in pictures and videos. This will be my prank for the semester.
I got back on Monday, and it was okay. Nothing to rah about. Spent my week lazing around in the daytime, went to Audrey’s house to pass her the gifts we bought for her, went to steam my hair, went out with Rachel, Kim Teck, Muammar and Basil and finally I’m back home. Haha. Well. All crammed into one tight week.
Anyway, God really helped me a lot throughout the week, and I want to thank Him for that. Woo. Had great food (chicken for dinner, almost every nite XD ) and great company. Was a little lazy, and told my mother that I’m only back for long holidays, instead of short. Especially Chinese New Year. I don’t feel like going back.
Oh. Had nightmares about my quiz. Haha. I dreamt that I was on a roadtrip, and my bladder was full at the time, but that didn’t matter much. As we approached INTI, back from our road trip, I realized that I had class. As I fumbled through my cluttered folder to find my schedule, I kept pulling out other people’s schedule, and wondering how on earth did they get in there. Anyway, by the time we reached INTI, I figured my schedule would probably be in the room. So I raced up the stairs of what looked suspiciously like my secondary school staircase, only to be blocked by stupid stuffed animals. Oh. Hate them. But I found my schedule among them, and realized that it was a Saturday.
=.=
I woke up and went to pee. No point holding back my full bladder much longer. Especially not for a stupid dream like that.
Ah. Ok. I’m going to stop here, and just get on with my chores. I have a lot of things to accomplish by tonight, before Jia Lerd gets back. Heh.
Posted by: maddiebones on: September 2, 2009
well, my semester has officially started. and i’m back in inti, going to class tomorrow. it’s a short semester.
anyway.
my holiday in point form:
1. arrival – wore a punjabi suit for my flight back home. =] managed to cause to some heads to turn and people to go wow. haha. sadly, my little prank intended for my dad backfired. he couldn’t make it, and my mum came alone instead. and, while we were walking towards the car, i couldn’t find it, and mum was like, here we are! in front of a toyota rush. my dad is … cheeky. even my cousins in the states know that they bought a new car, and they thought it’ll be funny to leave me in the dark.
2. driving – nobody lets me drive anything. partially because the new baby is well, untouchable, and the old tiara is unreliable. but anyway, after my brief training session with my uncle, i’ve been driving as much as i could, and i pretty much would say that i improved a lot since i last drove anyway. =]
3. cellphonessssss – i got new cellphones! yay! one is sony ericsson z770i, and the other is just a simple nokia 2630. awesome cuz now i can camwhore! yay! plus i get to chronicle funny moments without having to type so many words. lol.
4. external hdd – lol. first off, i wanna apologize to my dear friends. im sorry dude, your porn is lost. forever. HAHAHAHAH. tat was funny. lol. i lost my friend’s porn, thanks to my external hdd crash. argh. frustrating, as some of my fan fiction works are in there. but anyway, since i have warranty, i get a brand new one in return. hopefully that when they take the old one apart, they won’t try to backup the porn. haha.
5. crafts – managed to do some crafts and all. bleh. i feel like im getting my old life back, which is good. i missed it so much.
6. results – my results sucked so bad. but God said, humility before honor, so, i’ve come to accept it, and will try to do my best. i have butter finger faith when it comes to Kingdom things, and now i wanna train myself to be more careful. wasn’t easy. and i slipped (and didn’t tell anyone), but now i’m back. dear God, please keep me here.
well, that’s it. and i better get some sleep. class at 8. argh.
Posted by: maddiebones on: May 30, 2009
been waiting by edge of the ocean, by the seaside as the waves come and go. been waiting for the same sort of wave that would take me gently into the sea, to protect me in a bubble as i explore the impenetrable sea. been waiting for ages… been chasing the little crabs running out of their homes, been writing stuff in the sand, only to get them washed off by the waves.
sometimes, i just feel like leaving the seaside… but it’s the closest thing to home. it’s where i feel free. sometimes… i wonder… i know that the waves would never stop coming and going… but will the ocean stop looking so pretty if no one was there to see it? would it stop looking so impenetrable, so mysterious, so enigmatic… if no one was there to appreciate its dark beauty?
i’ve been wondering… is the sea my home, my bubble, my sanctuary? or is the sky, where i used to fly? where i would look down from up above, and see the world at my feet… i’m feeling the soft sand beneath my feet, and the waves that come would tickle me, before disappearing back into where they belong… but is it something i would miss? do i really want to have the tingly sensation of the sand and waves beneath my feet, or do i really crave the rush of air in my face as i fly high in the sky – far away from the chaos of this world?
i’m tired of waiting. all this while… i just want that wave to come back… and take me into the sea. take me back. from whence i came.
i can’t fly forever. it’s taking a toll on me. let me go back.
Posted by: maddiebones on: May 22, 2009
haha. no. it’s a name of a cocktail, and cocktail is a mixture of alcohol and other stuff…so, yes, this post shall be a mix of stuff.
i will be seeing my parents tomorrow, my mum just gave me my itinerary while i will be staying with them. Friday, after my Calculus class (remind me to talk about it later) I will be rushing back to my dorm, get my stuff and go off to KTM, then meet up with my mum. I’m not sure if my dad will be there too, so anyway, after that, go back hotel, meet up with dad, then meet up with koko chey, then go back hotel. Saturday go One-U. HAHAHAHAHA. *evil laughter* oh, speaking of shopping, remind me to go collect rachel’s teddy bear tomorrow. been busy lately. haiz. anyway, Sunday, my parents will be flying off in the afternoon, so I will be going back to INTI with them. Kinda. anyway. ya.
oh. I just had dinner with Eric just now, and i promised to chia him, coz he waited for my class to finish then have dinner with him. plus, i gave him the peanuts and cornflakes snack to snack on, mana tau he havent finish it yet, but oh well, at least he liked it =] hehe. he’s going off soon, so will be missing him. Alvin went off already. =[ miss him liao. ah. oh. today, i forgot my purse, but thank God met up with Erwin, and he passed me back my pencils, and i asked if i could borrow his $ for lunch. =$ not nice to ask, but he agreed, so ok lar. went to have lunch with him, =] and it was nice. haha. then…saw Kelvin at cafeteria, but he didn’t see me, so i texted him, and then he saw me, and he texted me back, “Was that erwin?? tsk tsk tsk” HAHAH. LOL XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
silly fella. haha.
i like all my guy friends, those from my cf. they’re all very sweet, and kind. and gentlemanly, actually. wow. =] haiz. and then… oh.
today, Norman didn’t go to Calc 2 extra class, so Mr N actually bombarded me with his lame jokes……………………………………………… sienz =.=”"” then at the end of the class, he apologized to me, and i replied him back, “I know you miss Norman…” and he laughed. lol. i guess lecturers do tend to get affectionate of unlikely students. HAHA. so cute.
also, i finished my integration questions, and as of now, as soon as i finish my questions, i will try my best to re-do everything, only now with time limit, so that i can “increase my speed” (quoting from AHEM – hahahahahahah!). anyway, i never knew i could finish my integration questions that fast coz since high school, i’ve always been weak in integration, but differentiation was fantastic coz my teacher that time was fast in teaching, and i never got bored in her class. but the integration, we learned in form 5 mah, then my teacher was a young lady, who had limited experience, so i guess it kinda got boring in her class (please read it as: “i slept in her class”) hahaha.
and guess what? it was fun, with the adrenaline rush to be the fastest (i was actually competing with Francis and Sher Minn, coz they were doing it pretty fast, but it was for my own benefit) and to be right at the same time. I wanted to build my own self confidence, so, yeah, it was a good experience. i think i study better in groups, especially if i’m competing. haha. pressure and adrenaline keeps me going. then, what arh? oh. i had no questions to ask. yay! i had a few goals in mind when i started my Calc2. i wanted to practice as much as i can, then, do them really fast, and also, increase my mental power in calculations as well as to grasp the concept and apply them equally fast until i reach a level where i don’t need to go to the lecturer to ask him anything. =] i think i’m very satisfied with my achievement, but i still want to do more. i want to be the best. i want to make myself the best. also………………………………………. yay.
i’m done. and i havent done my lab report yet. hahaha. ok lar. i go now. talk next time.
Posted by: maddiebones on: March 17, 2009
long time no blog. wanna burst liao. am feeling down. out of sorts.
here’s why:
tue (mar 17) – bio test
wed (mar 18) – submit public speaking outline; persuasive speech
thu (mar 19) – submit bio report x2
fri (mar 20) – computer extra class
mon (mar 23) – submit computer assignment
tue (mar 24) – econs test, bio quiz, submit bio assignment
fri (mar 27) – computer tutorial and test
oh my gawd. i donno la. mau mati sudah. i really feel so stressed up, but man, i look so stoned. HAHAHA. borrowed a word from a friend. hehe. aiyo. on top of that, i am involved in a few projects:
- graphics designer for magazine
- publicity team member for icf camp
- publicity team member for chinese cultural week
- graphics designer for gfs
=[
if only i didn’t have to be so stressed up with assignment. i wish i can just do my projects. haha. i would feel better with that. wish i can pick my battles. arghhhhhhh.
Posted by: maddiebones on: March 9, 2009
…wallow in self pity. for i have wrought this upon myself, and by hook and by crook, i shall finish my assignments.
sangat menyusahkan. feel so depressed liao. haiz. wan sleep. ISH.
Posted by: maddiebones on: March 5, 2009
… things are so hectic actually. haiz. let’s just say i’ve lost inspiration over what i should be doing now. but since doing my public speaking assignment, i’ve kinda regained my interest in certain matters, and it stimulated my imagination back again. perhaps the reason why i’ve lacked initiative so far is because i’ve had no creative outlet at all.
doing research on atlantis at the moment, so it’s pretty cool to look around and see what can i talk about. i miss reading those stuffy books about unsolved mysteries of the ancient world. =[ and it's so hard to look for it here. haiz. sucks. never mind.
anyway, later i will have my biology and public speaking class. after that i'll go back to my dorm for a little nap before heading off to my computer class. =] i’ve planned my time well. which reminds me, i’ve gotta compile my research as well as start on my website.
Posted by: maddiebones on: March 2, 2009
am currently worried about a dear friend of mine. he’s suffering from liver damage, because he was an alcohol drinker. not an alcoholic, but just someone who drinks far too much and often to be an occasional drinker, but not that habitual as an alcoholic.
i’m really worried for him, as he’s really depressed at the moment. he told me before he became a christian, but i doubt it a lot. nothing in his attitude whatsoever says that he’s changed. but i’m not giving up on him just yet. i told him not to die. i don’t wanna him to die.
so now i’m praying hard that God will save him. because the most i can do for him is pray.
